Weekly ATUM 53
black mirror, about the artist, sadhana day 40.
Merti 𓆸
A card outside the suit — the Joker of the deck — the one that does not follow rules because she is the rule.
In the ancient temples, the Eyes of Heru — Merti — were worn together only by a select few.
The right eye carried the sun.
The left eye carried the moon.
When Heru battled Set, his left eye was torn away — and Tehuti restored it.
A myth that mirrors a cosmic event: the moment when the light of the sun is eclipsed, and then made whole again.
The mirror reflects not only our physical body, but our spiritual condition and offers an opportunity to view our soul looking back at us.
The mirror is the symbol of birth, fertility, and protection.
To look into it is to remember that the divine sees you precisely as you are —
and still calls you beloved.
Oracle of the Mirror 𓆸
I am the Gate of Seeing.
I do not show you what you want to see —
I show you what is ready to be witnessed.
When you stand before me,
you are not looking at yourself,
you are looking into the agreements you’ve made
with light and shadow.
I reveal:
the places where you have turned away from your brilliance,
the wounds you have mistaken for identity,
the truths that are asking to be named.
Do not rush.
Do not brace yourself for judgment.
I do not condemn.
I show you your essence —
the part of you that cannot be diminished,
cannot be exiled,
cannot be hidden from itself.
Lean closer and look again.
You are not seeing what you are —
you are seeing what you are becoming.
choose illumination over illusion.
xx
About the Artist
Seeing this statement 8 years after writing it — how extremely different and yet similar my life is from that moment in my personal story. how aligned.
True to theme, heavy on the (black) mirror work this week and realized that I haven’t updated my bio since 2019; so I spent some time reflecting on that and where this journey has taken me.
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If you pull this card in a spread
reflect on yourself as an artist
your personal manifesto
your meskhenet.
consider your values,
especially alongside any lotus suit ntru that appear in the story…
It is also amusing that this would go out on Halloween.
A day when we can look in the mirror and be whoever we want.
We can all wear a mask.
and then turn around to thank our ancestors the next day.
Are they proud of where we have gone?
Are we grateful?
What have we truly learned?
Consider that we spend so much of our day staring into a black mirror; do we recognize what is being reflected back?
This is our first american halloween in a while, last year we were in Bali, and Senegal the year prior. I wrote about it on my first weekly atum — I dressed as Seshat and learned “om shanti shanti shanti” walking through the rice fields carrying the lanterns our children made in preparation at bali earth school.
Today I spent the day chaperoning a kindergarten field trip; we shall see how the rest unfolds…
tua ntr
